The List

WOAH. I found a stack of papers, notes, journal pages, etc while I was home going through boxes. Some of them were pretty old. But... In with all the other stuff... I found... THE LIST, and I quote:

#1. We both marry other people (and in this scenario, we're neighbors)
#2. One of us gets married (and I always, without fail, imagine it's you) and the other dies alone.
#3. Neither of us gets married.
#4. I die before getting married-- Probably of heartbreak.
#5. We marry each other. And, no matter how many times I work through these and think about it, this last one is the only one that makes sense.

WOAH. Okay, I didn't remember it looking/sounding like that. AND THEN I found a REPLY which I told him... I don't know why I have his list written out, but I remember now after reading it that I was so freaked out I had to physically write down a succinct reply. And I quote:

"I've questioned our relationship-- Especially since you came to visit. Don't take that the wrong way. I'm not saying I want anything. But I wanted you to know that. But I do believe, after a bit of reading, there are two things you should hear:

#1. Always be a real and genuine representation of Christ.
#2. Chapter 13 of 2Chronicles says the man who truly follows the Lord will be victorious over the man who merely THINKS he is following the Lord."

I definitely didn't remember saying that.... I remembered saying NO! I remembered closing that door with a resoundingly undoubtable shut. I AM FREAKING OUT. What was that whole mess? What IS that whole mess? It was so long ago, I shouldn't even care... Should I?