Stress Ranting

Four professors are looking at my research paper. I found out tonight. I am seriously horrified. I have written so many papers in the past couple years I can't even remember what I've written and what I've just thought about. But those are nothing compared to the monster I have been working on this week. I don't know why, but I was stressed about this one from the get-go. I suppose that's good. I usually procrastinate and do something off the top of my head the day before and end up hating it. This is different. First of all, I found the topic interesting and did a mildly acceptable amount of research. I pulled in primary documents, travel narratives, young adult fiction, poetry, movies, a speech, and even a classical reference from Shakespeare's The Tempest. Then, when I thought I was too annoyed to play around with it anymore than I already had (It's seriously a mess. At least my BS work is well organized) Dr. Hartley called me to ask me about it. He's an old English professor I had from the summer. I really like him and sometimes I run into him and we talk about literature and stuff. But then he called me and it seriously freaked me out. He wants to read my paper, "if that's okay" (and of course it is... who would say "no, that's not okay you creep" even if they were terrified??) He specializes in the stuff I am currently researching so it's incredibly intimidating, even if I didn't already respect him. Plus, he is friends with Dr. Creary and Marlene De Le Cruz-Guzman (both professors I have had for different classes and I babysit for them). They want to read it the paper too...

So in addition to the professor I was originally writing the paper for (Dr. Godwyll, who is incidentally, the CARE education partnership leader and the decisive judgment for my future) I also now have 3 other professors ripping apart my paper. Yikes. I don't get stressed, but I'm stressed. Criticism from the people you respect is tough, and I am a total coward. I wanted to be challenged, and now I'm shaking like a leaf.